Holy shit my tits are on PornHub - the permanence of cam work


“What happens on the Internet, stays on the Internet” - me, forever


Here’s a scenario for you: girl hears about camming from a friend who’s doing pretty well, so she decides to try it out, maybe do topless if she feels comfortable. She gets the jitters before her first show and cracks a beer, and a member offers her some tokens to take shots, which she accepts - within an hour she’s drunk and masturbating on cam in full view, total earnings $50 which she thought was $500 because she was doing her math wrong. 


This, on it’s own, isn’t really that bad. So she got wasted and did something she regretted - definitely not the first girl to pull that one off. Nightmare mode starts two days later when her brother calls her because his friend sent him the video clip of her doin’ the dirty and all hell breaks loose. Not only is her family pissed, but the video is up there and it’s out of her reach - there’s no way she can take it down. Getting over something you regret on your own terms is tough enough. Knowing it’s out there and there isn’t shit you can do about it is even harder.


And yeah, in case you’re curious, this did happen to a friend of mine. Which sucks. She doesn’t cam anymore, either, so the whole experience was sort of all for nothing in the end, which sucks even more.


Long story short, no matter who you are or what you do, whatever you do can and will be immortalized on the internet. The risk of it becoming attached to your legal name is always there, no matter how careful you are. There are services (which I will mention below) that can assist in removing some content of you from hard to attack places, but not all.


My advice is if you’re considering going into political work or work with children or youth, don’t cam. We’re not living in a society that is adult enough to understand that humans can be both sexual and respected (a rant about which I will save, for the time being), and those two industries I feel would be two of the most difficult to pursue if sex work history came to light. If you’re worried that potential partners would look badly on you for doing sex work, I’d argue that you shouldn’t waste your time on people who don’t understand that you’re a multidimensional human being who’s capable of fucking herself on cam AND being the best damn girlfriend/wife/partner they’ve ever had, but that’s just me. The same would go for other industries - my view is that if an employer can’t bring themselves to accept me for something I’m passionate about and enjoy, I’d rather not work for them, anyway. Not everyone is afforded this luxury of choice. 


Whatever you do, please don’t be naive. It’s not that it can happen to you, it’s that it more than likely will - the photos and videos of you live on cam will exist long after you stop camming, for whatever reasons you stop for. At the very least, make whatever repercussions you may suffer worth the experience, if it’s at all in your power to do so. 


BUT THE ANXIETY IS FUCKING KILLING ME PLEASE CAN YOU TELL ME AT LEAST SOMETHING I CAN DO TO TRY AND REMOVE THESE VIDEOS I’M ABOUT TO PUKE AND I CAN’T SLEEP


Yeah, I feel you. Check out cammodelprotection.com. They’re not free but they’re not expensive and they can and will help. I’ve used their services a couple times - they’re fast, very informative and helpful, and at the very least they’ve allowed me to feel that I have had at least some control over a situation that felt very out of my hands and scary, which helped me sleep a little easier. I’m sure I’m not alone. Again, this isn’t a cure all - it’s just a start. But it’s a very helpful start if you’re freaking the fuck out, that’s for sure.


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